Busy, Crazy, Hectic!

T- Hey.. Didn't write much these days because life in school now is very busy. School works, co-curriculum, helping teachers and more. I need to start organizing my self. I feel like I'm in a big pile of mess. Plus, problems going on with certain friends. I don't know how to help them.
I don't have much to say really. I can't think of anything right now.
I know things will get harder. So, i need to start preparing my self. Hope that i will do the best i can for whatever that i will go through in the future. All the best to my friends too! May God bless us all. Bye

What am i? Who am i? Please Explain to me?!

Elwo! Sya here....(echo....!) long time no use :( i know i know :( but here i am in tash's place writting this blog finally :)! well im 17. Period. Nothing interesting but yup. Ima 17. SPM, love drama, drama, school, work, my love ones (sighs). But Yea life at school ain't getting better sadly :( (smirks) but i do have something to let out. I am TIRED rewind here TIRED! of listening crap stuff really. Tired. Its like people tak da story nak share (damn i have bm here too) but really i am just fed-up dengar people talking about the same thing over and over again... Its like my life is simply just to listen to things over and over again. If i could i would i WANT to say just say please tolonglah PLEASE talk, let it out. For God Damn Sake! Im just letih you know malas nak dengar malas nak cakap. All i nak buat is (sorry i have rojak language) to JUST study... for my life. My simple boring crazy life. And i hope you have you and everyone have a great life. I pray for you. For everyone. I Hope for the Best. For the Better and Worse. Till death do us part. ah ima lame. wedding vows. (feeling silly willie now) I know naim's effect on people. Hah! damn im missing my old life. Nothing but just smile and wave. Smile and Wave.... Im smilling now finally. I know what i want. I know what i want to do. And Im doing it now. I have the aim. And now im going for it! Wish Me Luck! I love you all...!

Oh, please!

T-Why oh why does small problems has to be such a big deal? I mean I've never gone through it before, but lately I've gone through a lot of these type of problem. Is it because one side exaggerate more on the facts that it become a big deal, or the other side just would like to make it a big deal? Big possibility, right?
Do you realise that nowadays, even your close friends can brain feed you about others? I know that for sure. I'm not going to say names, but i think people should not do so even if you do not like the person. I mean come on, its our last year in the school. We need to spend our limited time together with fun. That could only happen if everyone is trust-worthy, fun, non-backstabbing, relaxed and cool.
I wish we could all think a like so that would be no problem at all. However, God has given us each a specialty to think differently and creatively. We could just put it to a good use by just simply work together and be one. But i guess, its just not that simple.
Yet of course, we could put in some effort to make it less harder.
Bye

It's a test..

T- I have never felt this way.[not in a "love" kind of way] By mean, extremely angry, tensed up, and internally sad, all at the same time. I guess i'm just not used to having people talk bad about me behind my back.[or even literally behind my back]. This morning, tried to read sejarah, but i couldn't help listening to the boys' conversation behind me and i could hear my name being mentioned a few times. I've never been a topic of people's conversation. I guess that means, when they talk about me, its not something nice about me that they are talking about. All this while, i'm just a nobody. Now, i'm the bad guy. Is this about the fact that i'm the president of KRS and i'm so crazy that i scold all my AJK? Oh please, is that all?! All i wanted was their help. I'm sorry if i've gone too angry, but one by one, people push me to my limit. I'm new to this. Help me. Don't push me around. Don't expect me to know it all in a second.
I am heartbroken. They have change the way i look at them as a person. I guess all this while, i was just blind.
Bye

New year oh dear.....

M- Very well very well... I just thought of posting something for the sake of it.. I know that's bad, but oh well. Ok.. The New Year... not a really good start but not that bad.. still thankful.. I'm still alive, still sane ( I hope) not depressed ( I think) but now am coughing ( not good ). Trying to figure out how to manage the people who joined kawat, yes I am scared, who isn't ?? kan ?? right?? betul kan ?? Hopeless ?? I sure hope not, I still like to kawat, yea I'm pretty passionate, but can I teach?? really hope so... So that gets me thinking... Hope.. one of the reasons why we are alive, right?? We all feel pain, yes it hurts... but It's a good teacher... It tells you you're still alive... What doesn't kill you can only make you stronger... most of the time :)

None of us really know when it is time for us to leave... some may know vaguely... but anything can happen at any given time... so all we can do now is to live in the moment... in our way... everyone chooses differently, but all hope for the best. Some choose to be happy know, and not worry about later, because to them, why waste time worrying. But those who do worry, like me, it's because we can't seem to let go of hope, we always hope for a later, not that we don't try to be happy now, we do, but we can't help worry, because we care. We do appreciate the good things, but maybe we don't show it well enough. Maybe not immediately. But when we are given enough time to sit and think, we do. We do good, in hope that we would get good things in return, because if there is a later, well at least we have something :)

So to all my dear friends,
While both you and I are still here, I would like to thank you for all that you have done, the advices, your time, your comfort,
while we are still here, I would like to tell you that I love you, and don't ever forget that,
while we have the chance, I want to ask for your forgiveness if I had ever done you wrong, or hurt you in any way,
I forgive you, If you have ever done so too, or at least I will try to,
so while we are still around, live like we are dying, because we are, everyone will have to leave eventually, and don't ever forget to smile :D..... Eat. Pray. Love

May God bless you all, and all the best

Lots of Love,
Melissa :)