New year oh dear.....

M- Very well very well... I just thought of posting something for the sake of it.. I know that's bad, but oh well. Ok.. The New Year... not a really good start but not that bad.. still thankful.. I'm still alive, still sane ( I hope) not depressed ( I think) but now am coughing ( not good ). Trying to figure out how to manage the people who joined kawat, yes I am scared, who isn't ?? kan ?? right?? betul kan ?? Hopeless ?? I sure hope not, I still like to kawat, yea I'm pretty passionate, but can I teach?? really hope so... So that gets me thinking... Hope.. one of the reasons why we are alive, right?? We all feel pain, yes it hurts... but It's a good teacher... It tells you you're still alive... What doesn't kill you can only make you stronger... most of the time :)

None of us really know when it is time for us to leave... some may know vaguely... but anything can happen at any given time... so all we can do now is to live in the moment... in our way... everyone chooses differently, but all hope for the best. Some choose to be happy know, and not worry about later, because to them, why waste time worrying. But those who do worry, like me, it's because we can't seem to let go of hope, we always hope for a later, not that we don't try to be happy now, we do, but we can't help worry, because we care. We do appreciate the good things, but maybe we don't show it well enough. Maybe not immediately. But when we are given enough time to sit and think, we do. We do good, in hope that we would get good things in return, because if there is a later, well at least we have something :)

So to all my dear friends,
While both you and I are still here, I would like to thank you for all that you have done, the advices, your time, your comfort,
while we are still here, I would like to tell you that I love you, and don't ever forget that,
while we have the chance, I want to ask for your forgiveness if I had ever done you wrong, or hurt you in any way,
I forgive you, If you have ever done so too, or at least I will try to,
so while we are still around, live like we are dying, because we are, everyone will have to leave eventually, and don't ever forget to smile :D..... Eat. Pray. Love

May God bless you all, and all the best

Lots of Love,
Melissa :)

Out to movie.

T-Heyy.. Went out today to celebrate Wani's birthday and watch New Moon. I was a bit blur watching that movie. This happen, then suddenly that happen. And Alysha kept on screaming every time Jacob or Edward was on the screen. Aiman and I looked at her every time she squil. Hahha, but it was fun. Out with friends.
However, got to get ready and pack up to go to Indonesia. [well, there's no need to pack to much as i want to shop a lot. Hahahha.] I think i sound kind of crazy right now.
Oh, yea. Aiman challenged Alysha on bowling and Alysha won! They are both so cute. Hahahha, happy times.
That's that for now. Bye

Holidays

T-Ah, it's me again. It has been holiday since past a week and I've been doing some reading only. Thankfully, I'll be going to Indonesia this coming saturday. Cheers! [shopping malls and shoplets, here i come!] Hahahha.. Not much to say actually. Hadn't talk to any of my friends in days. I wonder what they all are doing now. Must be having fun or something.
My parents just came back from business travel [i'm not sure if this is right. is it work travel or ??] from Europe and they brought back bunch of chocolates. My fridge are full of chocolates. [I'm just bored, that's why i'm talking about chocolates] Hahahha.. Bye

Friends

T- Heyy.. God! It has been long.. Anyway, as what Sya has said in the previous post, I've missed my old friend too. She change[to the worst] a lot and I'm excruciatingly disappointed by that. Cried a lot because of her change in attitude. My friends and I missed the old her terribly and couldn't think of any way to get her back. The only thing that we could do is just pray. [p.s.: I'm talking about the same person]

She was one of my first friend when i moved to KL on the year 2001. She is one of the friendliest person I've known. And i think because of that, she is easily influenced to the bad. She's away from us now, and that made it harder for us.

I don't get it. What's important now to most of the girls are who have prettiest face, who have the most expensive and cutest handbag, who is wearing the prettiest dress, and bla bla bla bla.. I mean, move on. Everyone is pretty, everyone is stylish, everyone is EVERYTHING! Stop the competition [that never exist].

I LOVE all my friends and i don't want them to feel that i'm controlling them. The fact that i love all of them, makes me want them to be the best that they could.

I'm just trying to be the best friend that you have ever had. Bye

A friend

I've been thinking a lot about what to say when she comes back... but right now I have no idea who and what she is. It upsets me a lot to see her like this. To be honest I'm not really good at confronting people.

She was my best friend. I loved her. But after what she did to me and a couple of people, I only know her as another person, a friend, full stop. I have nothing to say about her. She knows who she is and I know who I am..

If she was mad at me, I wish she'd say it in front of my face then telling other people rumors about me. I just hope she doesn't fake the friendship we have so far.

I've known her since standard 1. I was her classmate for 7 years. But after that, I don't know her anymore. So please, if she is reading this, Im sorry if I've ever done anything wrong to you. Miss you.

XO