Desires

Desires. What comes to my mind when i heard the word desire is that desire is a strong emotion that urges a want or a hope of a person. A desire to gain, own, experience, feel, see, touch something or etc. It is a strong emotion within someone that makes them utterly passionate to have it. Desire. Desire practically controls a lot of things and probably everything to someone. Its desire that drives a student to graduate with excellence. Its desire that brought a couple together. Its desire that grows a small company into a multi-million dollars company. And its desire that causes a murder to happen. A desire is wild, content, excited, playful, genius, futuristic, passionate, cunning, terrifying, a force, etc. A desire should be reached, but not all desire contributes positively to a person. Hence, if a desire give a positive impression or impact on a person's life, it should be fulfilled.
    As a muslim, i believe that desires should be fulfilled as long as they do not hinder me from adhering to the principles of Islam. Desire is a strong feeling. It can be good or it can be dangerously bad. Desire should be controlled with proper knowledge, a stable and logical thinking for it to happen as wanted or to be resisted from happening.
    Desire is very subjective topic. Desire can be defined in a whole range of ways with different ideologies because everyones emotion and thoughts on this matter are different.
    These are my thoughts on desire. I had typed all that came into my mind with regards to desire. I can't lie because i, myself, do have desires that i would like to fulfill in the near future as well as in the long run.
    Do tell me what defines desire in your opinion. I believe that reading or listening to others' understandings open up the breadth of our thinking and knowledge. I guess you can say that that is one of my desire!

Love, T.

Frontier.

Honest To God. Oh My God. Dear God. Uh.

#unfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff.... i think in KY ihm considered weird &nd beyond' truly i believe it and what zee heck i dont mind

but i think i think i know no, i know the reception i get from this weirdness <-- only people close enuff.. get me. i dont care if ihm not accepted buttttttttt

STOP JUDGING ME ! ! !

anyhoo i cant wait for hunger game

&ndddddddddddddd if yuuuuur reading this Tash(:

mwe cants waits for yuuuur b'dayyyy finally turning 19 whoop whoop

My My My Happpyyy Early Wishes.. hehe ingat last year's?

&nd my roommates decided this week of all weeks to watch movies all day all week long :o

clearly we're meant to be

and thankfully i hope they do accept me as who i am

Cause [ doing my finger greeting ] You Accept Me. I Bes Good Friends. Kays !

righttt and this post is created by Syaz at 9.48pm 7 March 2012.. Close To My Mock &nd Not Forgetting AS :O

Random

Hey. It's been a while since i write. [typical intro to my post =b] This is random. I'm going to review a movie. Bet everyone know this movie. Beauty & the Briefcase.

I thought the movie was sweet and cheeky. I like Hilary Duff as an actress, but the whole time i was watching the movie all that I can remember or recall is that she's Hilary Duff, not as her character - Lane Daniels. She's fun to watch though.

I like Michael McMillan as Tom in this movie. [i don't really know him actually] He's not that obvious hottie you see in a typical movie. You wouldn't think that he would be the one. But thanks to the movie title, you should know it would be him.

The plot of the movie is somewhat similar to Confession of a Shopaholic. A girl trying to get into and work for a fashion magazine ended up in some boring business world.

All in all, the movie was simple and sweet.

That's all from me for now. =} {T}

Good Dayyyyyum

Good Aff..Evenin` Tis feb Uhmm 9th Ihm officially 19 :O YOLO? seriously me nuu understand what zee meant lol xD anyhoo as of 8th Feb we ( I ) have as in 3 months equals to 90 days peps! :DDDD <--- all zee f*ck given ! its coming AS ISHHH COMING ! ! !

ahhahaha and ihm all like this :o





and thanks to yuuuuuu ahmazin friend Shaza(: i found thishhhh heheh :DDD



Enjoyyy while i do some essays.. ehhh all my papers are essay oriented :O

KaboomZattt !

Boom Boom Pawwwwwwwwww Rawrrrrrrrrrrrr :)

Kays Very Bery Malas.. AS Innnnnnnnn how many more months ( ehh thee printer gila kuat :o )

Ahhh yeahhh AS In JUNE thats date 06 2012.. lmao ihm very weird

anyhooooo i bruised my cat :o

Bobby's the name &nd Ihm an official tumblaaaaaa-cholic xD

thats chocolates mixed with cookies with coco puffs with intern

et 24/7 <-- literally i skip meals :p

Meowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww...i know a dude name bob BUT

really his Uhmm Ikhmal?

lols SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO as always ihma zeee eye catching buffery dudes

found.. 2 or is it 3 :O but tis my favorite :)

but weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :)

tis we're a dude me and mwelly will looky wike this xD

hahahah kays thats it for now.. more of abs man :)

&nddddddddddd Tash ! I Misshhh Yuuuuh < 3 3 3 3 :)

-Sya :)

Oh... changes...

hehehehehe.... ok sorry, so as just to not annoy you with what is it that I'm eating everyday, I decided to create another blog and post it there. So, no worries, I'll just use this blog as usual.

The said blog is under this account, its just a different blog.

Sooooo.... the real entry for this post.....

I'm born this way. The song that I woke up to yesterday...
yeah... pretty much it, but it helped me feel better...
hence, the picture, I'm pretty much like that =P

oh and today hujan panas, the raindrops are oddly big, if the weather was cold, definitely hailstones..

Lots of love,
M

It has been too long....

M- As the title suggests, I'm now writing again because its has been quite sometime since I last wrote, or any of us.... me especially.

Secondary school went, just as shockingly as it came. SPM is now over, all of us can feel age catching up ( well... maybe just me ). Emotions, especially ones we never knew we could ever feel, great anger, depression, the odd and suddenly 'zingy' happiness, even the silly puppy love ( which I find to be a great inconvenience, but a necessary lesson nevertheless ) came bursting through the window, flying everywhere, especially in form 5. Yet still, what a year it had been, great at times, quite ( eehhh....) worth experiencing, but thank God it passed.

As I am typing this now, I remember all the times we had, how happy we were, and how sorry I feel now, for the times that we weren't. I really miss all of you, especially all of you, only all of you.

Now, again, I'm leaning towards depression, but a very mild attack. So many things are swimming through my mind, but most likely because I've been so, vacant, so empty or jobless, for so long...or its hormones or something. I'm thinking about why have I gained weight, why do I feel so bloated and sluggish, does my stomach have a problem with prunes?? ( ehh??!!,,) Vain thoughts, but what to do. I do feel quite terrible, very uncomfortable in my own body.

So I've decided to use this blog to record, if that is the word, how I feel and what I ate, and why each day ( or whenever I can ), a sort of online food journal, but one where I know the ones reading are my friends ( even though I do know this blog is public, but I really think my friends are the only ones who bother to read it ) .

I also hope this would again be our means of communication, since now we are definitely physically far apart. I really miss you guys =(

Till next time.

Love,
M

Busy, Crazy, Hectic!

T- Hey.. Didn't write much these days because life in school now is very busy. School works, co-curriculum, helping teachers and more. I need to start organizing my self. I feel like I'm in a big pile of mess. Plus, problems going on with certain friends. I don't know how to help them.
I don't have much to say really. I can't think of anything right now.
I know things will get harder. So, i need to start preparing my self. Hope that i will do the best i can for whatever that i will go through in the future. All the best to my friends too! May God bless us all. Bye

What am i? Who am i? Please Explain to me?!

Elwo! Sya here....(echo....!) long time no use :( i know i know :( but here i am in tash's place writting this blog finally :)! well im 17. Period. Nothing interesting but yup. Ima 17. SPM, love drama, drama, school, work, my love ones (sighs). But Yea life at school ain't getting better sadly :( (smirks) but i do have something to let out. I am TIRED rewind here TIRED! of listening crap stuff really. Tired. Its like people tak da story nak share (damn i have bm here too) but really i am just fed-up dengar people talking about the same thing over and over again... Its like my life is simply just to listen to things over and over again. If i could i would i WANT to say just say please tolonglah PLEASE talk, let it out. For God Damn Sake! Im just letih you know malas nak dengar malas nak cakap. All i nak buat is (sorry i have rojak language) to JUST study... for my life. My simple boring crazy life. And i hope you have you and everyone have a great life. I pray for you. For everyone. I Hope for the Best. For the Better and Worse. Till death do us part. ah ima lame. wedding vows. (feeling silly willie now) I know naim's effect on people. Hah! damn im missing my old life. Nothing but just smile and wave. Smile and Wave.... Im smilling now finally. I know what i want. I know what i want to do. And Im doing it now. I have the aim. And now im going for it! Wish Me Luck! I love you all...!

Oh, please!

T-Why oh why does small problems has to be such a big deal? I mean I've never gone through it before, but lately I've gone through a lot of these type of problem. Is it because one side exaggerate more on the facts that it become a big deal, or the other side just would like to make it a big deal? Big possibility, right?
Do you realise that nowadays, even your close friends can brain feed you about others? I know that for sure. I'm not going to say names, but i think people should not do so even if you do not like the person. I mean come on, its our last year in the school. We need to spend our limited time together with fun. That could only happen if everyone is trust-worthy, fun, non-backstabbing, relaxed and cool.
I wish we could all think a like so that would be no problem at all. However, God has given us each a specialty to think differently and creatively. We could just put it to a good use by just simply work together and be one. But i guess, its just not that simple.
Yet of course, we could put in some effort to make it less harder.
Bye

It's a test..

T- I have never felt this way.[not in a "love" kind of way] By mean, extremely angry, tensed up, and internally sad, all at the same time. I guess i'm just not used to having people talk bad about me behind my back.[or even literally behind my back]. This morning, tried to read sejarah, but i couldn't help listening to the boys' conversation behind me and i could hear my name being mentioned a few times. I've never been a topic of people's conversation. I guess that means, when they talk about me, its not something nice about me that they are talking about. All this while, i'm just a nobody. Now, i'm the bad guy. Is this about the fact that i'm the president of KRS and i'm so crazy that i scold all my AJK? Oh please, is that all?! All i wanted was their help. I'm sorry if i've gone too angry, but one by one, people push me to my limit. I'm new to this. Help me. Don't push me around. Don't expect me to know it all in a second.
I am heartbroken. They have change the way i look at them as a person. I guess all this while, i was just blind.
Bye

New year oh dear.....

M- Very well very well... I just thought of posting something for the sake of it.. I know that's bad, but oh well. Ok.. The New Year... not a really good start but not that bad.. still thankful.. I'm still alive, still sane ( I hope) not depressed ( I think) but now am coughing ( not good ). Trying to figure out how to manage the people who joined kawat, yes I am scared, who isn't ?? kan ?? right?? betul kan ?? Hopeless ?? I sure hope not, I still like to kawat, yea I'm pretty passionate, but can I teach?? really hope so... So that gets me thinking... Hope.. one of the reasons why we are alive, right?? We all feel pain, yes it hurts... but It's a good teacher... It tells you you're still alive... What doesn't kill you can only make you stronger... most of the time :)

None of us really know when it is time for us to leave... some may know vaguely... but anything can happen at any given time... so all we can do now is to live in the moment... in our way... everyone chooses differently, but all hope for the best. Some choose to be happy know, and not worry about later, because to them, why waste time worrying. But those who do worry, like me, it's because we can't seem to let go of hope, we always hope for a later, not that we don't try to be happy now, we do, but we can't help worry, because we care. We do appreciate the good things, but maybe we don't show it well enough. Maybe not immediately. But when we are given enough time to sit and think, we do. We do good, in hope that we would get good things in return, because if there is a later, well at least we have something :)

So to all my dear friends,
While both you and I are still here, I would like to thank you for all that you have done, the advices, your time, your comfort,
while we are still here, I would like to tell you that I love you, and don't ever forget that,
while we have the chance, I want to ask for your forgiveness if I had ever done you wrong, or hurt you in any way,
I forgive you, If you have ever done so too, or at least I will try to,
so while we are still around, live like we are dying, because we are, everyone will have to leave eventually, and don't ever forget to smile :D..... Eat. Pray. Love

May God bless you all, and all the best

Lots of Love,
Melissa :)

Out to movie.

T-Heyy.. Went out today to celebrate Wani's birthday and watch New Moon. I was a bit blur watching that movie. This happen, then suddenly that happen. And Alysha kept on screaming every time Jacob or Edward was on the screen. Aiman and I looked at her every time she squil. Hahha, but it was fun. Out with friends.
However, got to get ready and pack up to go to Indonesia. [well, there's no need to pack to much as i want to shop a lot. Hahahha.] I think i sound kind of crazy right now.
Oh, yea. Aiman challenged Alysha on bowling and Alysha won! They are both so cute. Hahahha, happy times.
That's that for now. Bye

Holidays

T-Ah, it's me again. It has been holiday since past a week and I've been doing some reading only. Thankfully, I'll be going to Indonesia this coming saturday. Cheers! [shopping malls and shoplets, here i come!] Hahahha.. Not much to say actually. Hadn't talk to any of my friends in days. I wonder what they all are doing now. Must be having fun or something.
My parents just came back from business travel [i'm not sure if this is right. is it work travel or ??] from Europe and they brought back bunch of chocolates. My fridge are full of chocolates. [I'm just bored, that's why i'm talking about chocolates] Hahahha.. Bye

Friends

T- Heyy.. God! It has been long.. Anyway, as what Sya has said in the previous post, I've missed my old friend too. She change[to the worst] a lot and I'm excruciatingly disappointed by that. Cried a lot because of her change in attitude. My friends and I missed the old her terribly and couldn't think of any way to get her back. The only thing that we could do is just pray. [p.s.: I'm talking about the same person]

She was one of my first friend when i moved to KL on the year 2001. She is one of the friendliest person I've known. And i think because of that, she is easily influenced to the bad. She's away from us now, and that made it harder for us.

I don't get it. What's important now to most of the girls are who have prettiest face, who have the most expensive and cutest handbag, who is wearing the prettiest dress, and bla bla bla bla.. I mean, move on. Everyone is pretty, everyone is stylish, everyone is EVERYTHING! Stop the competition [that never exist].

I LOVE all my friends and i don't want them to feel that i'm controlling them. The fact that i love all of them, makes me want them to be the best that they could.

I'm just trying to be the best friend that you have ever had. Bye

A friend

I've been thinking a lot about what to say when she comes back... but right now I have no idea who and what she is. It upsets me a lot to see her like this. To be honest I'm not really good at confronting people.

She was my best friend. I loved her. But after what she did to me and a couple of people, I only know her as another person, a friend, full stop. I have nothing to say about her. She knows who she is and I know who I am..

If she was mad at me, I wish she'd say it in front of my face then telling other people rumors about me. I just hope she doesn't fake the friendship we have so far.

I've known her since standard 1. I was her classmate for 7 years. But after that, I don't know her anymore. So please, if she is reading this, Im sorry if I've ever done anything wrong to you. Miss you.

XO

Rawr, Im Aly. Thats the name sya gave me. please dont ejek me... that means you hawa! ;p
Right now, talysyamel is at Tash's house doing krs work :D (invites and cards)
Tash's brother is soo cuteeeeee....
Sorry, Im very random. That's the basic stuff about me.
Were 16 and SEXY.

xoxo aly.

S : ello!!!!!! me wanna intro you guys to our newest member of tasyamel ALYSHA :) talysyamel coolios :) aly is now officially our newset member for our blog...to aly have fun and enjoying posting blogs love ya lots

XOXO syanana


anyways for new member we need a new pic so here for us... talysyamel :)

Exam and masalah sedunias....hahahaha

M- MEOW!!!Well I have come to realize that I don't seem to be an active member of this blog so I'm trying to make up for it now... hehe... Well exams are coming up,and I completely do not have any sort motivation to study at all,apart from my friends who force me to study and go to class... Thanks you guys... Love ya lots...

Ok... there's that and there's the masalah sedunia.... soal hati la... bla bla bla..... *sigh* Well this probably isn't the best time to think about all of this right?? Should be studying... hehe... Guess that's it for now... Sambung lagi lepas exam.... All the best to everyone!!!! MUAH!!!

its only nana for all of us...

ello its me nana/syazzy i feel so lost exam in 2 weeks and here i am writing so heres what happened... i was me tash was tash and mel is mel LMAO that was what i saw through my dirty brown eyes..i think its dirty but i have a feeling its just brown...anyways i kinda like brown you also wanna know why...why i won't tell alritey till then when im more sane and maybe very random i shall write more :) bye bye till exam cheers :D